Are we there yet??

Let me just say....I am exhausted! My mind has been going so many different directions for the past week and a half that I am just ready for a break. However, I wont get a break until after Saturday when my group performs at their first contest and I can stop worrying about whether or not I have actually prepared them for that moment. Well, it's almost to the point that I have done everything that I can do for now and it will be up to them to follow through.

I have a fairly young guard this winter. Young as in, inexperienced in performing in front of large crowds without the band behind them. Only 5 of my kids were in the fall program (which is actually just over half). So I'm hoping they dont freak out when they get in front of a large crowd.

Sorry that my last couple posts have been guard-related, but that seems to be what most of my "free" time is devoted to right now. Not too much to report on the TTC front. As usual. Did I mention that I hate BCP's?? They really messed up my system last month and it was not cool. Just ask hubby. He had been feeling a little deprived for literally the last few weeks (poor guy) :) You will be pleased to know that I think he is feeling better for the time being ;)

Okay....so Im gonna ask again if anyone has any good ideas for raising money to help with IVF costs. It might be a little selfish, but anything that I can do to contribute to our savings (or lack thereof at this point) would really help us out. So if you have any really good ideas, or just ideas in general, please throw them my way!! Thanks in advance! :)

A little show and tell

So I said that I would post them...so here they are. Yes, pictures of our winterguard tarp that is (I hope) finally finished!! Im not really sure how well the fabric is going to stay on the actual tarp...it makes me a little worried right now. I will let you know how it goes when we pull the tarp back out tomorrow night. Yikes...Im definitely a little worried. However, for the time being it looks nice.

So the end result was to actually make the design look like it was coming out of the tarp. Did we succeed? I think we did a fairly good job of it. The fabric (velvet, to be exact) was a pain in the butt to put on the tarp. We will never be doing that again!! And it was not my idea in the first place...but oh well! lol

We have our first contest this coming Saturday and everything is slowly coming together. Now if I could just get my kids to perform the show better with more expression. It will come. I hope. :)

Hmm...Interesting

So we decided to grab some Chinese for lunch today. We eat out a lot at my place of employment, which is bad I know, but oh well :) Here is what my fortune says for today.


***You shall soon make a long, overdue personal decision.


Im curious. Im thinking along the lines of looking for new employment, but who knows. Anyone else care to take a stab at it??

New Look...New Year

New look for the blog. Let me know what you think. Do I need to add anything? Do I need to change font colors? I also added a description under my title. I'm bored at work because I dont want to do client notes right now :) So I'm working on my blog...

It's a crazy life we live sometimes!

Life is a little crazy at the present. And oh yeah, this is my 100th post!! It should have happened a while ago, but I have definitely not been posting very often. I need to work on that!

I really dont have much going on in my little life. I am, of course, worrying about money. But who isnt these days? Hubby and I have a few bills that we would like to get paid off before we go into treatment again. We also have to put a new roof on our house. So the money we get back for our taxes this year, will be going toward that. Oh yes, and that ancient window in our living room that gives us a draft all day long! That will hopefully in turn help out on our utility bill! Which in turn will help us save that much more (however much that is) for IVF. Sounds like a plan right? Do you think it will actually work out that way? Haha...I dont. Plans never stay the same, there is always something that puts a kink in them. Of course, that could just be my pessimistic side coming out.

So in the TTC front, we are at a stand still. Basically, we will be on a break for a while because there is no way that I am going through IVF without having my doctor take a look at the good ol' uterus to make sure we dont have to clear anything out again. Plus, we have to save some money.

I need to start coming up with some creative ways to help us with our saving. One of my ideas is to, of course, have a garage sale. Not sure we will get much out of it, but any little bit helps. How much do you think a Bowflex workout machine will go for? Hopefully quite a bit! That is going to be one of my summer projects. If anyone has any other good ideas please share!! Im open to suggestions.

I Want to Jump Up and Down and Scream................but I cant

So I turned 25 on Tuesday, January 6th. I dont feel any older. I'm not really sure what I am feeling right now. Numb? The start of the new year is supposed to make you feel re-energized and I have yet to feel that. Or did I just dream that up?

Anywho...my life is kind of blah right now. I am working hard to get my guard ready for their first contest on the 24th. Im definitely getting a little nervous. The class we are in is pretty competitive and I would just like to make it to State Finals (which is Top 20) this year. I really think we can do that too. We shall see!

So I think I am about the only one in the blogosphere who has not discussed my New Year's resolution(s). I honestly have not set any. Well, actually I take that back. I have had some in the back of my head, but have yet to have the time to start putting them to action. I am going to start going back to the gym on my off days from guard. However, this week I have had something to do with that every flipping night! Of course!

Another thing that I am going to work on is my cooking skills. I dont have the patience to fix a big meal...ever. It also doesnt help that hubby works 2nd shift and isnt home to eat dinner with me, so I feel that it is so pointless to make a nice meal for only me to enjoy. It's never as good the second time around!

That's pretty much it. I have no expectations for this year. 2008 was a Piece of Shit, so why would 2009 be any better. Especially when we dont have the money to throw into more treatment. My Negative Nancy is coming out tonight. She's bitter and rightfully so.

I Havent fallen off the face of the Earth...

No matter how much I really would like to sometimes, I havent. However, I have been buuuussssyyyy!!! Like, no time for myself busy. At all. I have been painting a huge 50' X 70' tarp for our upcoming winterguard season and it has taken up the past 5 days of my life. No joke. So I dont have much to update on.

I can tell you that the BCP are annoying the crap out of me. Having to remember to take them again is one thing, but the other thing is they are screwing up my system!! And It's not enjoyable. More like disgusting and cant enjoy my time (the little that I have) with hubby :(.

To top it all off...I have been sick. Yet again. For the third time in about 3 months. Well, less than 3 months. So, yeah, sick for the past almost 3 days. Im feeling much better today, but it started Sunday night and I was up most of the night not able to keep even water down. Sorry, TMI :) But Im definitely feeling better now!

So...back to the real world (work) tomorrow and hopefully some free time on the way. Here's my nice little project I have been working on...

If you cant tell what it is...it's a Compass Rose. Of course, it's not done in these pictures. Half of the triangles will be an actual fabric we are going to put on the tarp. Plus, there are two circles and more small triangles that go around the outside of the compass to make it complete :) I will post pictures when it is completely done!!

For now, Im glad to be finally feeling better and done painting!