So the hours tick on and tomorrow morning I go in to get my follies and my lining checked. Also to make sure all of my levels from my b/w are where they need to be. Im really hoping I have a few good size follicles to keep growing for the IUI.
Im thinking that my IUI's are going to fall sometime the end of this week. I guess it all depends on how they look tomorrow and then at my next u/s. Especially since tomorrow is CD #10, that would mean days 14-16 are around the end of the week. In June the IUI's were performed on days 15 and 16.
So Im still praying that my body is not going to try to ovulate too soon so that I dont have to take the Cetritide. Im not real sure that stopping my body from ovulating on command is such a good thing. Of course, then I would do another injection to actually make it ovulate when it should. To me, that just doesnt quite seem right. However, I know that everything has to be timed so precisely and my follicles need to be a certain size and so on and so on. Ahhh...here come the crazy emotions again! :)
Well, to be honest I really havent been back on my emotional rollercoaster this month. Im thinking here in a few days it will probably start kicking in and I will have to go along for the ride. We shall see what happens. As for now, Im enjoying the rest from the constant ups and downs. Hubby and I are spending some quality time together tomorrow and going to see a movie (Stepbrother) that Im sure we will be peeing in our pants from laughter. It should be great!
As for my quitting the caffeine intake that I posted the other day. Im doing decent. I have limited myself to 1 a day. And Im doing pretty good with that. I did really well the first day and only drank water. So Im really working on it, I promise. Those no-caffeine headaches are killer I tell you! Im not doing so hot with the prenatals. Im horrible at remembering to take any kind of medication (other than the injections, not sure it's possible to forget you have to do those). Im working on it though. It's just going to take a little time! I will update tomorrow night with the results from my u/s in the morning. Until then....
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
CD #8: Reiki, anyone??
So this has been a really long week. It's hard to go back to work after a week long vacation of not working. So needless to say I am totally ready for the weekend. I. Am. Exhausted! Could it also be from all the extra hormones I have been injecting for the past 3 nights? It very well could be.
I work with an amazingly wonderful person. She has helped me through so much for the past 6 months or so. She has been my shoulder to cry on and someone that I can also vent to. She knows just what to say and when to say it. She truly is a Godsend. I think she was put in my life for a special purpose. She is a Sister with the Daughters of Charity. (I will refer to her as Sister M from now on) She is our Community Liason within our agency. Sister M also goes to one of our local shelters and provides massages for the men once a week. She is wonderful! Well, the other day Sister M came to me and asked if I had been doing anything other than the injections for the IUI. I wasn't really sure what she meant and she said she was wondering if I would like for her to do Reiki either right before my next IUI or while I am doing my IUI. I had never heard of Reiki so she explained. Basically it has to do with spiritual energy and healing. (I never knew she practiced this and she had never really talked about it) If you want to know a little more information click http://holisticonline.com/reiki/hol_reiki_home.htm. (Sorry, I dont know how to do shortcuts to links without copying the whole thing, if someone can help me out that would be cool. Im a little computer illiterate when it comes to that)
So...Sister M brought me some pamphlets and apparantly she can do this healing touch without me even being present. She said all she has to do is know when I am going in to do the procedure and she will make some quiet time during that and do Reiki. I dont have the money to do accupuncture, so Im thinking why not? Has anyone else ever heard of this? She says she has done it for people on several occasions when they have something important or stressful going on in their lives. Im all for anything that might possibly destress me. So Im thinking this could be kind of interesting. Let me know, anyone have any thoughts about this?
Sunday is the first big u/s after 5 days of injections. Im getting a little nervous. I still have my Cetritide from the last cycle that I didnt have to use and Im really hoping I dont have to use it this time. I will have to use it if my body is trying to ovulate too early. It's also something that I actually have to mix together myself (which is scary) and the needle is longer and a bit bigger. So Im praying my body will cooperate and not try to do something it isnt supposed to do yet. Im sure I have a greater chance with the upped dosage this cycle, but Im hoping for the best.
I work with an amazingly wonderful person. She has helped me through so much for the past 6 months or so. She has been my shoulder to cry on and someone that I can also vent to. She knows just what to say and when to say it. She truly is a Godsend. I think she was put in my life for a special purpose. She is a Sister with the Daughters of Charity. (I will refer to her as Sister M from now on) She is our Community Liason within our agency. Sister M also goes to one of our local shelters and provides massages for the men once a week. She is wonderful! Well, the other day Sister M came to me and asked if I had been doing anything other than the injections for the IUI. I wasn't really sure what she meant and she said she was wondering if I would like for her to do Reiki either right before my next IUI or while I am doing my IUI. I had never heard of Reiki so she explained. Basically it has to do with spiritual energy and healing. (I never knew she practiced this and she had never really talked about it) If you want to know a little more information click http://holisticonline.com/reiki/hol_reiki_home.htm. (Sorry, I dont know how to do shortcuts to links without copying the whole thing, if someone can help me out that would be cool. Im a little computer illiterate when it comes to that)
So...Sister M brought me some pamphlets and apparantly she can do this healing touch without me even being present. She said all she has to do is know when I am going in to do the procedure and she will make some quiet time during that and do Reiki. I dont have the money to do accupuncture, so Im thinking why not? Has anyone else ever heard of this? She says she has done it for people on several occasions when they have something important or stressful going on in their lives. Im all for anything that might possibly destress me. So Im thinking this could be kind of interesting. Let me know, anyone have any thoughts about this?
Sunday is the first big u/s after 5 days of injections. Im getting a little nervous. I still have my Cetritide from the last cycle that I didnt have to use and Im really hoping I dont have to use it this time. I will have to use it if my body is trying to ovulate too early. It's also something that I actually have to mix together myself (which is scary) and the needle is longer and a bit bigger. So Im praying my body will cooperate and not try to do something it isnt supposed to do yet. Im sure I have a greater chance with the upped dosage this cycle, but Im hoping for the best.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
CD #6: My heart reaches out
Not much to report today. Im feeling a lot better than I was yesterday. I dont have the constant "urge" at all. Maybe it was just all the water I have been drinking. That could very well be it, but if it happens any more, definitely calling the doctor. Please dont yell at me for not calling today... :).
Injections are going well. Same ol' same ol' as last time, just a higher dose. No pain. Im actually really good at giving myself shots now. Not really sure if that's a good thing...maybe I should have been a nurse instead of a Social Worker?? Nah! I enjoy my job most of the time. There is the occasional day when I just really do not want to be there. But I think that everyone has those days.
Today was one of those days. Wednesdays I have the pleasure of spending some of my normal lunch hour at one of our Soup Kitchens. Im supposed to be there in case anyone needs to talk to me about where to find resources, housing, etc. Today was a busy day. Not really that people came to talk to me, but busy with how many people were actually in the church. There were a LOT of kids. And it wasnt just a lot of school age kids (out for the summer), it was more like 3 and 4 year olds and under. It really breaks my heart to see this. Especially when you see generations of families come in all together. It's that dang cycle that is so hard to break for these people. Especially now when our economy just keeps getting worse. Well, before I get on my soapbox, I will change the subject.
Everything else is going well. I go in on Sunday for my u/s and b/w. Not sure if I said that in the last post or not. Checking of the follicles and then see where we go from there. Whether I have to visit them every other day or every day to get more b/w and u/s done. The way Im figuring, I think IUI's are going to fall sometime around next weekend. Either right before the weekend or during. We will have to play it by ear just like last time.
Anyone else ready for it to be this weekend already? I sure as heck am just so I can get to my u/s and make sure those follies are growing as they should. Im hoping to have at least two or three good ones this time. That way, my chances will greatly increase for a BFP! So, lets do some yodelling, chanting, praying, whatever you want to do! :) Oh....I want to say thanks to all those that read my blog and those who comment. It's great to know that I have blogging friends looking out for me! Until tomorrow....
Injections are going well. Same ol' same ol' as last time, just a higher dose. No pain. Im actually really good at giving myself shots now. Not really sure if that's a good thing...maybe I should have been a nurse instead of a Social Worker?? Nah! I enjoy my job most of the time. There is the occasional day when I just really do not want to be there. But I think that everyone has those days.
Today was one of those days. Wednesdays I have the pleasure of spending some of my normal lunch hour at one of our Soup Kitchens. Im supposed to be there in case anyone needs to talk to me about where to find resources, housing, etc. Today was a busy day. Not really that people came to talk to me, but busy with how many people were actually in the church. There were a LOT of kids. And it wasnt just a lot of school age kids (out for the summer), it was more like 3 and 4 year olds and under. It really breaks my heart to see this. Especially when you see generations of families come in all together. It's that dang cycle that is so hard to break for these people. Especially now when our economy just keeps getting worse. Well, before I get on my soapbox, I will change the subject.
Everything else is going well. I go in on Sunday for my u/s and b/w. Not sure if I said that in the last post or not. Checking of the follicles and then see where we go from there. Whether I have to visit them every other day or every day to get more b/w and u/s done. The way Im figuring, I think IUI's are going to fall sometime around next weekend. Either right before the weekend or during. We will have to play it by ear just like last time.
Anyone else ready for it to be this weekend already? I sure as heck am just so I can get to my u/s and make sure those follies are growing as they should. Im hoping to have at least two or three good ones this time. That way, my chances will greatly increase for a BFP! So, lets do some yodelling, chanting, praying, whatever you want to do! :) Oh....I want to say thanks to all those that read my blog and those who comment. It's great to know that I have blogging friends looking out for me! Until tomorrow....
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
CD #5
Okay...so today has not been a good day and I havent even started my Gonal-f injections yet. Getting ready to do that by the way. Well, lets just say that I think I am getting some kind of infection. Yes, that's right, an infection dealing with the bladder or basically a UTI. I have never had one before, but dangit, it's really flipping annoying. I am going to have to call the Dr. tomorrow and let them know what I have been "feeling" the entire day. This shouldnt mess anything up with my injections right?? Because really...that would just be shitty. But I have been so uncomfortable all day long and constantly feel the need to go to the bathroom, but when I do, not a whole heck of a lot comes out. So, I googled. My symptoms definitely fit into the category of a UTI. Possibly of the bladder. No lower back pain at the present.
So this is just great. Lets just add one more thing to the wonderful debt that we have already accumulated. So I will be calling the Dr. in the morning and letting the nurse know my symptoms and make sure this is not going to screw anything up for this cycle. I dont see why it would if I get it taken care of now. Im sure they will tell me I need to call my Family doctor (yeah, I dont have one of those) and let them know the situation. Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! Time for my injection.
So this is just great. Lets just add one more thing to the wonderful debt that we have already accumulated. So I will be calling the Dr. in the morning and letting the nurse know my symptoms and make sure this is not going to screw anything up for this cycle. I dont see why it would if I get it taken care of now. Im sure they will tell me I need to call my Family doctor (yeah, I dont have one of those) and let them know the situation. Rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! Time for my injection.
Monday, July 28, 2008
CD #4
Let the emotional rollercoaster begin!! Well, Im actually hoping that it doesnt get too bad this month, but I think that it is going to be inevitable. Went in for my ultrasound today and my cyst is GONE!!!! Whoo hoo!! I have a couple really tiny ones, but they said it was nothing to be worried about.
So...tomorrow begins the wonderful nightly injections that I must endure for the next 5-10 days. In June I started out with injections of Gonal-F pen at 75 on days 5-10. This month, I get to double that dosage to 150 of Gonal-F pen, days 5-10. That is why I said that I think it is going to be inevitable that I will be on an emotional rollercoaster for the next two weeks. My hormones are going to be so out of whack and over the top I'm sure that I am going to be a handful for several people. It's probably a good thing that DH is now on 2nd shift, because that will mean less time that he will have to put up with my crazy moods. So everyone please be prepared for the usual hormonal blogging that I will probably be going through here very soon. :)
Oh and I have now given both of my arms and my left leg for this whole IUI #2 to be possible. My injections, since they upped my dosage, are now costing $200 more than in June and I had to bite my tongue when the lady from the pharmacy gave me my total. I literally think that I about crapped my pants. So if you look back at a previous post from June I think I gave the total cost for IUI #1...just add $200 and that is how much we are paying this cycle. All I have to say is...Shit the Bed!!!! And again, atleast I have one leg to stand on for the time being.
There is no way in H*LL we will be able to do another cycle. It is just not financially possible. So, Im hoping and praying and crossing everything that can be crossed that we have a good outcome for this month. Oh and I am giving up my caffeine. Well, I will have to ween myself off of it, but Im gonna do it. It will make me healthier in the long run and that is really the worst habit that I have healthwise, so that is my goal for this month. I also am going to start taking my prenatal vitamins again. So, I really have two goals for this month.
Well, Im at work, so I had better get off here and try to do some notes on clients.
So...tomorrow begins the wonderful nightly injections that I must endure for the next 5-10 days. In June I started out with injections of Gonal-F pen at 75 on days 5-10. This month, I get to double that dosage to 150 of Gonal-F pen, days 5-10. That is why I said that I think it is going to be inevitable that I will be on an emotional rollercoaster for the next two weeks. My hormones are going to be so out of whack and over the top I'm sure that I am going to be a handful for several people. It's probably a good thing that DH is now on 2nd shift, because that will mean less time that he will have to put up with my crazy moods. So everyone please be prepared for the usual hormonal blogging that I will probably be going through here very soon. :)
Oh and I have now given both of my arms and my left leg for this whole IUI #2 to be possible. My injections, since they upped my dosage, are now costing $200 more than in June and I had to bite my tongue when the lady from the pharmacy gave me my total. I literally think that I about crapped my pants. So if you look back at a previous post from June I think I gave the total cost for IUI #1...just add $200 and that is how much we are paying this cycle. All I have to say is...Shit the Bed!!!! And again, atleast I have one leg to stand on for the time being.
There is no way in H*LL we will be able to do another cycle. It is just not financially possible. So, Im hoping and praying and crossing everything that can be crossed that we have a good outcome for this month. Oh and I am giving up my caffeine. Well, I will have to ween myself off of it, but Im gonna do it. It will make me healthier in the long run and that is really the worst habit that I have healthwise, so that is my goal for this month. I also am going to start taking my prenatal vitamins again. So, I really have two goals for this month.
Well, Im at work, so I had better get off here and try to do some notes on clients.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Pretty excited :)
Im babysitting tonight. Which is great by the way! This is the first time that my brother has let me babysit (Blaze is the reason he didnt want his kids with me, which totally sucks, because as I said in an earlier post, he is awesome with kids). We have had fun. We went to Mickey D's for dinner (healthy, healthy) and played on the playground afterward. My niece and nephew both had a blast. They are now sound asleep in the other bedroom.
It's been fun trying to keep my nephew (who is 15 months) out of Blaze's water bowl. He has decided that whenever he sees water, he thinks that he can splash it everywhere. Blaze's water bowl gets pretty nasty because he drools so much, so you can just guess how fun that is to clean up. Blaze was a little too excited when they first got here, but has only knocked J down once. J has hit, pinched, poked, and layed on Blaze and he hasnt cared one bit. I havent had to worry about Blaze nipping/biting him or anything. It's awesome! So this just confirms my theory that he is going to be great with a baby in the house. Im sure that he is going to want to sleep with my niece (who is 4) when it is time to go to bed. In fact, he has already been in there once and laid on the bed.
So anyways...this is a great thing. This just keeps proving that he is going to be awesome with a little one. Im so past ready now that it just keeps getting harder and harder. This month wasnt that bad because I was on BCP. There wasnt any disappointment, just a lot of anticipation for AF to start so that I can get things rolling with IUI #2. And it all starts over again on Monday with the first ultrasound. I will definitely be keeping everyone up to date again. It's nice that I will pretty much know what to expect now with this cycle.
Oh and I think I read a post by someone else that said something about starting big projects during IF treatments, yeah, we fall into that category. Our deck is literally falling apart and we have waited waaaay too long to replace it, so we are in the process of finding out just when they are going to come and put a new one on the house. First payment is already sent (ouch) and now we are just waiting for them to call and let us know when they will be out so that we can tear the old one down, bust up concrete and get a nice, new, shiny deck. The savings is slowly dwindling down to very little backup in case of emergency. As Im sure that I am not the only one with this problem. However, the deck has to be replaced. It really is getting ready to fall apart (boards are starting to warp and the stairs are rotten beyond repair with concrete blocks holding them up). Im hoping the people call back very, very soon and can come out very, very soon. Until next time!
It's been fun trying to keep my nephew (who is 15 months) out of Blaze's water bowl. He has decided that whenever he sees water, he thinks that he can splash it everywhere. Blaze's water bowl gets pretty nasty because he drools so much, so you can just guess how fun that is to clean up. Blaze was a little too excited when they first got here, but has only knocked J down once. J has hit, pinched, poked, and layed on Blaze and he hasnt cared one bit. I havent had to worry about Blaze nipping/biting him or anything. It's awesome! So this just confirms my theory that he is going to be great with a baby in the house. Im sure that he is going to want to sleep with my niece (who is 4) when it is time to go to bed. In fact, he has already been in there once and laid on the bed.
So anyways...this is a great thing. This just keeps proving that he is going to be awesome with a little one. Im so past ready now that it just keeps getting harder and harder. This month wasnt that bad because I was on BCP. There wasnt any disappointment, just a lot of anticipation for AF to start so that I can get things rolling with IUI #2. And it all starts over again on Monday with the first ultrasound. I will definitely be keeping everyone up to date again. It's nice that I will pretty much know what to expect now with this cycle.
Oh and I think I read a post by someone else that said something about starting big projects during IF treatments, yeah, we fall into that category. Our deck is literally falling apart and we have waited waaaay too long to replace it, so we are in the process of finding out just when they are going to come and put a new one on the house. First payment is already sent (ouch) and now we are just waiting for them to call and let us know when they will be out so that we can tear the old one down, bust up concrete and get a nice, new, shiny deck. The savings is slowly dwindling down to very little backup in case of emergency. As Im sure that I am not the only one with this problem. However, the deck has to be replaced. It really is getting ready to fall apart (boards are starting to warp and the stairs are rotten beyond repair with concrete blocks holding them up). Im hoping the people call back very, very soon and can come out very, very soon. Until next time!
Friday, July 25, 2008
My Lack of Posting
For all those wondering...if you were at all. I have been on vacation all week long and haven't had time to post. Well, I've actually been really exhausted this whole week so I haven't really felt like posting. My vacation this week consisted of being out in the nice hot sun from 12-8:30pm every day teaching colorguard routine and drill sets to my high school guard Im working with. So I really have not had much of a "vacation". I didn't have to go to my grown-up job all week, so that was my vacation.
AF came late last night, so today is officially CD1 of the next cycle. I go back to the doctor Monday morning at 8am. Lets all pray that my huge balloon of a cyst has disappeared from my ovary so that we can continue on with IUI #2. Im pretty sure that I will not be happy if I have to do another rest cycle. Also, this is the last cycle that DH and I can afford to do for a while, so Im really hoping and praying that it works out. Otherwise, we will be waiting until the two cycles get paid off before starting the third and who knows when that will be. And by that time, my endo will more than likely be back to grace us with its presence.
Also, for those that were wondering....Blaze is a 141 lb. Great Dane. He is my baby. He sleeps with us every night (Im guilty of starting that) and thinks he is a lap dog. I enjoy having him around. He is definitely ready for a little brother or sister though ;). He has always been really good with my neices and nephews and I think he will be wonderful with a baby in the house. More than likely, he will end up being very protective, as he is of DH and I. So, yes, he is huge. But as I said earlier, he really does think he is a lap dog and will prove it to you in a heartbeat :). That's all I got for now. I am still extremely exhausted, as today was the last day of our band camp. I will definitely need the weekend in order to recooperate.
AF came late last night, so today is officially CD1 of the next cycle. I go back to the doctor Monday morning at 8am. Lets all pray that my huge balloon of a cyst has disappeared from my ovary so that we can continue on with IUI #2. Im pretty sure that I will not be happy if I have to do another rest cycle. Also, this is the last cycle that DH and I can afford to do for a while, so Im really hoping and praying that it works out. Otherwise, we will be waiting until the two cycles get paid off before starting the third and who knows when that will be. And by that time, my endo will more than likely be back to grace us with its presence.
Also, for those that were wondering....Blaze is a 141 lb. Great Dane. He is my baby. He sleeps with us every night (Im guilty of starting that) and thinks he is a lap dog. I enjoy having him around. He is definitely ready for a little brother or sister though ;). He has always been really good with my neices and nephews and I think he will be wonderful with a baby in the house. More than likely, he will end up being very protective, as he is of DH and I. So, yes, he is huge. But as I said earlier, he really does think he is a lap dog and will prove it to you in a heartbeat :). That's all I got for now. I am still extremely exhausted, as today was the last day of our band camp. I will definitely need the weekend in order to recooperate.
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